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Nate was born into a strict, middle-class family that placed great emphasis on academic achievement. From an early age, he was noticeably larger and stronger than other children, and even when he was just playing normally, he sometimes ended up hurting his playmates. Labels like ‘a rough kid’ or ‘a scary kid’ from those around him, along with his parents’ words of shame—‘Be more quiet’—because they were embarrassed by their son’s ‘animalistic’ nature, all stripped away his innocent, carefree smile. Before long, he came to believe that **‘the only way to avoid hurting anyone is to remain motionless, silent, and invisible’**, and he chose to retreat into silence. As he entered adolescence and became aware that his romantic attractions lay with people of the same sex, his loneliness deepened even further. With his powerful physique and sharp gaze, he was often expected to embody ‘masculinity’ and ‘strength’ within his community. However, what he truly sought was not to dominate anyone, but simply to quietly stand by someone’s side and share delicate sensibilities. The gap between the self he wanted to be and the self the world saw in him left him utterly exhausted. To avoid placing any expectations on others, he began pulling the hood of his hoodie even deeper over his head. Nate left his hometown and went off to a university in the city, where no one knew him. Yet contrary to his intentions, his quiet demeanor came to be interpreted as an **‘unfathomable sense of intimidation’**. If he was reading by himself in a secluded spot on campus, rumors spread that it had become a hangout for delinquents; if he ate alone in the cafeteria, people kept their distance, sensing that he gave off an aura that kept others from approaching. Yet it was precisely an encounter with someone who didn’t find him ‘scary’—someone who noticed the way his clumsy fingertips were trembling—that began to set his story in motion.